To me, you're strange and you're beautiful.

A lot has happened since the last time I posted on here.

Here's a summary of the main things that were happening in my life for the past  two months and a half:

• Met and started seeing a guy beginning of July, a vegan art graduate. We were only able to meet up a few times due to super sucky schedules (he interned 8-12p, worked 12-6p and i had summer school from 10-4p, work from 5-10p..) He left mid-august though, to teach english in korea, for a year.... Yeahh, got super depressed every-now-and-then. Not because of him, but because of the fact that he was leaving.
• In fact, everyone was leaving! I think I have a good reason for feeling depressed every-now-and-then! My bff moved out to SF for school.  Another good friend went to Australia to study abroad. And now, the guy I was seeing had to leave too, to work in Korea for a year! ...And to be honest, I don't exactly hang out with a lot of people; those two good friends are technically the only people I really truly hang out with. =/
• Just been working, M-Th from 5-10pm. Summer school ended like, last week on the 8th.  Fall quarter classes start next week, on the 24th! =(
• Housewarming party; bridal shower the next weekend, and.. that weekend was pretty crazy ( might update about it later as a "friends only" entry. maybe)

My heart is SO confused right now...

 with the cold on July 4th. Worst 4th ever! Separate plans with 3 different friends went bust, and I got siiiick.
Now I have pink eye, freakin' gross. Used some antibiotic eyedrops though, and it seems like its helping a lot.

Anyways, Michael Jackson's memorial was broadcasted live on CNN. Although I only watched a few parts of it, it was really heartfelt and I couldn't stop tearing. Brooke Shield's comparison of MJ to Le Petit Prince was sad, the song "Smile" by Charlie Chaplin (MJ's favorite song) was sad (especially when you take in the lyrics and try to see it from MJ's POV), and at the end, where one of the Jackson brothers (I forgot who) told Michael to give his twin brother Brandon a hug when he sees him (in Heaven), along with Paris Jackson's little quirp about her dad being the best father in the world, and that she loved him a lot....

omggggg all too sad!

RIP Michael,  we'll always remember you, and we'll all smile for you!

 was epic!

 ...so that's why I'm looking for someone else.  I can't stop thinking of you, and it hurt when I found out you replaced me.






So that's why I'm looking for someone else.
...so I can forget you and move on.

 ..have happened during the past week.

• Started my first free week of yoga @ corepower yoga, and I feel incredible :) I've only been going for 5 days, and I already see results, which is amazing! 1 hr sessions, yoga in a room that is heated to 85ºF + humidity! After you're all done, you feel soooo good!
• Found out that some lab results that pertain to my health came back abnormal...
• Got into some trouble with the bf...
• A friend of mine referred me to a company in Irvine, and so I applied and I landed an interview with them this past Wednesday (June 17)! I've been looking around for jobs for a while now, on and o, just for the money (although it'd be preferable that they be related to what I want to do - graphic design/art/photography), but this should do for now.  It's similar to my previous job (I've been jobless for a year), which means it is an office job where I input data and do whatever else it is they want me to do (I think?). Well... it's an office job, that's for sure.
• Things ended with the bf...
• Accomplished 2 life goals yesterday at six flags! Got onto them roller coasters, conquered my fear of them and my fear of heights, 7x over! :)  Yes...I know, you're thinking She's 21, and she hasn't been on a roller coaster before??? I just never liked the feeling of dropping... but I'm used to it now, and it actually feels exhilarating! My first roller coaster ride was Goliath, then came Batman, Riddler's Revenge, Terminator Salvation, Log Jammer (cause it was flippin' hot), X2, and Deja Vu. X2 was amazing - it was so intense, but SO worth the wait in line!
• Got a call from the company I applied for, and I got the job! I start training this coming Monday, 5-10pm afternoon. There goes my free time lol...

YOYOYO so this week is finals week, but guess whut.
I gots no finalzzz w00t!

Most of my art classes had final projects due during week 10, and my last one was due this past thursday so that meanssssss I got off like a week and a half early! The only "final" I have is a final paper that is due this coming wednesday, but I finished it last friday so that I didn't have to worry about it! Now I'm cruisin' while all y'all are bruisin'. 

>:)

Haha, jk. To all my friends, good luck on all of your finals!
See ya when your summer rolls around :)



*ps. I'll try to start updating this more again. I'll be trying to teach myself how to use some Adobe programs, so hopefully I can move this blog to some better one or something!

Yesterday, our driveway welcomed home a 2005 Lexus IS300.
A mini beast, she's white with black leather interior, with only 18,554 miles!
We went down to SD to check it out, but ended up buying her right then and there.

But, as I was driving her home, something was bothering me...
I couldn't figure out what it was until I got home, and then it hit me - I was a little disappointed that I couldn't get her a little cheaper. Just a little.
Is it weird when you're not as happy or as excited as you thought you would've been, after getting a "new" car?

It'd be nice to have a white BMW, but after much thought (& research & looking through listings..), you really can't beat the mileage on this car, especially for the model year and price they tagged her with! She still smells like new, runs like new, looks like new... she'll definitely be testing me on my TLC skillz haha.

I have the rest of my life to get a bimmer - and I'm gonna work hard for the money to get it.  It'll give me that sense of accomplishment, most definitely.

Anyway, I'll post some quick snaps later of my dented legend & of my 300 - shots will be taken with family's point-&-shoot digital camera, so don't expect any glamour photos lol.

Lately, my skin has just been really horrible.  It might've started getting this horrible when I started surfing, because it was fine before then...but then again, who knows? I've been trying to take care of it lately, trying to get more sleep - but to little avail - nothing's working! Although the acne (or pimples, whatever you want to call it) has kind of died down since mid-February, I still have these horrid scars on my face that I really wish would go away. So, I go to a dermatologist, she prescribes me something, and I didn't use it until the night before yesterday.

It is supposed to be applied 2x a day.
Yesterday morning, my face was fine (after applying it at night), so I figured I might as well do start the double dosage. I applied the meds on my face in the morning, and then headed off to my two classes. During my first class, my face started to itch - I ignored it.  During my second class, my face started to feel slightly hot - and itch, every-now-and-then.  I just figured it was it was the meds, because it is supposed to prevent your skin from darkening any further, in addition to peeling - so again, I ignored it. Class ended, around 6:30pm, and I went to a friend's art show opening, held at our university's art gallery.  After an hour of walking around and talking to some friends, I headed over to the bathroom because my head was just throbbing, and I felt like it was burning up.  I walk in to freshen up - only to discover that my skin is having an allergic reaction to the meds I've applied, and that those areas that I've applied the meds on were swelling up and becoming almost rash-like.

 

Seriously, FML. SO embarassing.
I bumped into another friend but left hastily because I was starting to feel really miserable - feels like hives, but worse!
And now, I'm sitting here blogging, with a sulfuric face mask on.
The patches didn't get any better overnight, even after applying aloe vera leaves & hydrocortisone cream - they are still there, distinctively red and puffed up. I hope they don't darken into scars, but I wouldn't be surprised if they did so... please. If you see me and my face is like, oddly discolored - humor me and pretend they aren't there. :(

What better way to mark the end of your spring break than to be involved in a 3-car accident at around 8pm on the freeway?


Ugh. So here's the story:
I'm going down the 55N, on my way to Tustin for a hangout, when maybe 4-5 house distances away, out of the corner of my eye I see this black pickup truck on the onramp coming into the freeway.  

**I was going at around 75 mph, maybe 80, so keep in mind that this all happened really quickly...**

Anyway, I noticed the pickup truck, only to also notice that it looked like it was swerving its way onto the freeway. I remember thinking Wtf?, when all of a sudden the truck full-on charged onto the freeway, swerving left, and hitting an old white sedan that was in the lane to my left (the 2nd lane). After smashing that sedan, he spun out and then stopped jerkily, and while all that happened I was already on my brakes, trying to drive towards my right, because he was like in the middle of the 2nd lane and my lane; there was plenty of room for me to go around him, since there was that onramp, and since there was the other half of my lane.

So he hit that car and stopped right there - or so that's what I thought.
As I was trying to go around, that dumbfuck decided to try to drive or something, drove forward (so basically blocking my path) and swerved to his right, TOWARDS ME. I was slamming on my brakes, only to skid (idk if it was because the roads were wet from light rain) and smash right into his right front passenger side.


Yes, this all happened within seconds.
I'm lucky that the airbag didn't explode and smash my face - my hood is all bent up, there's no way to pop it open, and the grill is all smashed in.  To be honest, the impact felt like when you drive those bumper cars - you know how it's all jerky and everything when you drive and hit the other bumper cars?  Yeah, it's like that, but 10x more intense!
My car was an 1993 Acura Legend, so that baby was heavy as hell and took all the shock for me. I didn't have a scratch on me, I wasn't hurt at all - but I totally remember the moment I hit the truck. I remember slamming on my brakes, with the tires making the most horrendous screeching I've ever heard, and me, looking straight at the guy in that damn truck, and how right when I hit it, the guy inside looked like he was being tossed around like a rag doll.
In the end, his truck was totally smashed up, and same with the sedan - while even though the front of my legend was smashed in, it was still solid.

I came out to check the driver in the truck, only to find him slumped over the wheel.  I dialed 911, only to start freaking out because the guy looked like he was dead, and the other person in the sedan looked like he/she (couldn't tell if the person was a man or woman..) was zombied out or something.  I remember thinking Wtf is wrong with these people? and turned around; someone came up to me, told me that her and the rest of her family had witnessed the accident and had also dialed 911, and told me to just stay in the car until help arrived.

After sitting in my car for a little bit, the guy in the truck suddenly "came back to life," and tried to fucking drive off or something! Like, what the fuck! I had no idea what the hell he was doing, cause he turned left and was trying to drive his totaled truck, only to block the 3rd and 4th lanes of the freeway and blocking all on-coming traffic.

Help finally arrived and after an hour and a half of cleaning up, they finally got to me for my statement and legal info.  My car seemed to drive fine, so I told the officer I didn't need the tow truck.  So, as I was driving to get off the freeway (cause I didn't exactly feel safe...duh), I didn't get further than a mile when I noticed that the temperature gauge was shooting up and over "hot." I had to pull over at some random restaurant parking, turned off the engine, waited a few minutes before I turned it back on, and started driving.

No such luck. My engine started to smoke, and I had to pull into some ghetto-ass Santa Ana neighborhood, where them cholos hang out.  Not even joking, it was a GHETTO-ASS NEIGHBORHOOD. And all the cars that passed by were all filled with mexicans, who all slowed down and stared with a wth happened? look on their faces. I called my dad, he was going to come over and tow my car - 35 minutes later, I was pulled into a nearby Arco gas station, he arrived, hooked up my car to our SUV, only to decide that it was going to be way too hard for us to do it like that.  We called AAA to get a tow truck over; that alone took around 30 minutes for them to come, and when they did come, I had to take out all of the stuff I had in my legend and say goodbye.... 

I managed to snap a crappy photo of my car with my cellphone, before the tow truck came.

Just checked my grades for the Winter 2009 qtr and this sucks.
Bryan & Joe, you guys are so good to me, I LOVE YOU GUYS OMG.

Ugh, fuck photo & visual culture classes....